Could I really have an eating disorder?
Journal Entry: Wed Dec 12, 2007, 7:40 PM
- Mood:
Nervous - Listening to: BBC NEWS 24
- Reading: LAST DAYS OF THE REICH- JAMES LUCAS
- Watching: BBC NEWS 24
- Playing: SEGA CLASSICS
- Eating: WHAT DO YOU THINK!
- Drinking: WHISKY
Well well well, the invalids going back to the doctors to waste even more tax payers money, Ive been avoiding him for a while but I figure its about time to go back, I have begun self harming again (which I havent done for four years), am not eating properly, drinking again (and was doing so well) and am generally painfully self-aware, overtly analytical, cynical, nihilistic ECT ECT BLAH BLAH BLAH, I even bore myself with all this self indulgent bullocks
I think my main worry is that I have become very secretive with my behaviour, even with James, whereas before, at least with him I would say something but now well I only ever seem to be eating for show and even then it doesnt usually stay in my stomach for too long ( which really is strange for me because I have always had a massive appetite), before people would say I was looking good, now they say I look pale and thin and ask if Im sick, even my mother ( who is stick thin), keeps trying to give me seconds, maybe Im paranoid or maybe shes caught on, but it seems as if shes pressuring me to eat, even though I purposely eat in front of her, in order to disprove her suspicions
I dont know if I have a problem or not, circumstance brought on these issues, but it probably would of happened one way or another anyway so I can only blame myself, needless to say I do worry, maybe I should just stop being so self possessed and get on with it, I dont know, maybe I will go to the doctors appointment tomorrow but in all honestly I probably wont, why waste his time, when people with really problems could have my appointment
Devious Comments
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Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
I was kinda (very) drunk when creating that topic, not to say that all of that was just alcohol speaking but I probably wet a bit over the top, I was very suprsed to log on and find 168 unanswered messages but was not sure to reply to them, so as not to revive a topic that is dead
lol, I feel like a bit of a twat now. A bottle of vodka and interneT acsess is never a good thing
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Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
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lol dude your saying that cause you either never got laid , couldn't deliver it at the right time or coming off a bad break up .
rofl.
But seriously, sexual pleasure is a need for all existing creatures especially humans.
I completely disagree with you (nothing personal of course). Sexual intercourse is not a matter of threat but a matter of reproduction or pleasure, nothing more.
"Rape, paedophilia, unwanted pregnancies, terminations, over population, bad health, immoral behaviour and religious intolerance" are not caused by desire of sex. They are simply caused by the state of a sick mind and can be explained clearly.
Rape : People who commit sexual crimes are considered mentally ill, they do not sexually rape because they "desire" sex, they usually do it to get back at something : a failure, a bad childhood,...
Paedophilia: Pedophilia is a developmental disability and not a sexual orientation or a "sexual desire" as you say.
Unwanted pregnancies: Again caused either by rape or "a bit 2 much drink"
Over population: This one usually has a cultural reason and also the medical advancement, preventing people from dying naturally.
Immoral behaviour and religious intolerance: Again caused by cultural background and also religion politics (it is for the best to not open a discussion on that issue)
Anyways, in conclusion, what you are suggestion does not make any logical sense.
Please reply me; I would love to hear your comments.
Thank you.
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Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
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Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
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Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
--
Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
--
Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
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Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
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Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
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Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
--
Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
--
Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
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Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
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Du
du hast
du hast mich
du hast mich gefragt
du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt"
I like your lyrics.
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